Chelsea

So I will admit that I am a complete Twilight nerd (yes I realize that I'm now nineteen but oh well :]). Anyways today my best friend Chelsea took me out to Bangkok 96 which is an amazing thai food restaurant for lunch and so she could give me my birthday gift. As lame as it sounds she bought me the Edward doll from Twilight and a bunch of candy. I'm such a ridiculous little kid with this and it absolutely made my day, especially since she's all for team Jacob (his nose is too big for my liking). Haha. So now my manager Jenn and I are trying to fully corrupt her since she came out of her shell just for me. :P Oh and since my other manager, Wayda, was making fun of us and our Twilight discussion, we are all seriously thinking about all pitching in and buying him the Edward and Bella set for Christmas because he would absolutely lose it. :) Hmm...

Ah geeze now I better get back to my homework..what fun. LOL :)

I'm a little tea cup?

This morning in psychology we were talking about sleep and the stages of sleep, one being the stage that contains the crazy dreams we have. As we were discussing this I started to think of the craziest dream I've ever had and will probably always remember and it made me laugh because it was absolutely ridiculous.

I had a dream that I was sitting on a stool dressed up a little like Alice in Wonderland at tea time (I've never seen this movie). Just as I was about to drink out of my tea cup I looked down and seen a very mini version of my mim and gramps on the rim of the cup. They were arguing and I watched my mimi give gramps a shove right into my tea and well...I freaked out. I leaned forward to grab him because I was scared he'd drown. However when I did this I tumbled off the stool which would have been somewhat normal except I didn't hit the floor, I fell into a larger cup of tea, I know I'm crazy. Well as I'm trying not to drown because I can't swim and I look up and see my mom holding the tea cup that I'm borderline drowning in. She lifts the cup to drink the tea and me. Just as I start to fall towards her mouth I wake up. When I look around I realize I had actually fallen off of my bed and was lying on my floor. Weird I know.

For a high school psych assignment we had to write a paper on a dream we had and analyze it and of course I chose to do this dream. He told me that something was making me feel overwhelmed and that the cause of my stress was from the opposite of my mom.

Hmm...what do you think?

woo!

So today is my nineteenth birthday! I'm super excited because it is my birthday but I'm not quite sure why. I mean it really isn't an i mportant birthday to me since Canada isn't on my agenda haha. Either way I love birthdays, milestone or not. My mom took me shopping. Tim took me out to Mongolian BBQ and he is taking me to Greenfield village for the Christmas lights. Also Chelsea is taking me out to Bangkok 96 for lunch on Wednesday! I'm really excited. I'm such an old lady that Chelsea said she was going to buy me a cane. :)

work

Now I actually like my job as weird as that sounds. The people I work are awesome and they joke around all the time, my favorite person to work with is actually my younger manager. However lately he has been annoying and frusterating everyone at my work, we think that it was his promotion recently. He was promoted from assistant manager to restaurant general manager and at first we were all very happy for him and proud because he had been waiting forever for this to finally happen. It went to his head now and he thinks he is king of the world and throws his weight around all the time. Last Monday we were busy and it was 5:14 no joke and he was scheduled till five, well heres the thing if your store is busy you should stay a little late to help out right? No he actually put his jacket on with phones ringing off the hook and pizzas backed up on the oven and left! I ignored his bye I was so mad! What makes it worse is that about five minutes before he yelled at Chris for trying to clock in like 13 minutes early to help us! Servers get paid like $2.50 an hour its like 75 cents really now! He told him that he didn't want to get in trouble for his tricks! Plus besides that I have three days a week, I need more hours and he told me that I could have them but he actually took away one of my days and gave it to another server with four days already because she was complaining about hours! So now I lost my ten hour day which I made $100 on so she could have her hours! I'm so frusterated and wish that he would get off his high horse!

Schindler's List Scene Analysis

In Steven Spielberg's Schindler's List one of the final scenes stood out more than the others; the scene in which Oskar Schindler completely breaks down in tears thinking of all the Jews that he could have saved. Throughout this whole film Schindler was only concerned with making profit and pleasing his own needs, however in this final scenes his desire for money was not selfish but selfless. I was shocked at Schindler's overwhelming change, he was actually shaking and sobbing on the ground in front of a crowd repeating how he could have saved more. During this scene when Schindler received a ring from some of those Jews that he rescued he begins yet again to think of profit. This ring symbolizes his connection that the Jews he saved had with him, he was no longer their owner or a danger, he was their friend and savior. However this connection is quickly overcome by his desire to almost pawn of the ring so that he would have money to go and save more Jews; he keeps going back to how he could have saved more. Schindler's vulnerability and inability to help anymore Jews is shown through the higher camera angle looking down on him as he sobs making this a truly unforgettable an absolutely moving moment in this whole film. Now even though this is the scene that depicts his change the most, there are other subtle hints throughout the film that show his hidden compassion on the Jews that he is holding on his concentration camp. The one that stands out most, probably because it is the only color in a black and white film aside from a candle, is the little girl in a red coat that is seen running through the streets. When Spielberg shows Schindler and his mistress looking down from the hill on their horses to that little lost and probably very frightened girl, the camera zooms in on his face to which shows his intense attraction to the girl and there is even slight distress; Schindler starts to doubt his money driven actions. Although this scene does prove to be a very important scene in the film because it shows hints of Schindler's change of heart, it differs from certain concrete evidence in Schindler's readings such as Oskar Schindler and his mistress were probably never watching from Lasota Hill (Oskar). These readings also share that there were certain circumstances that prove to have made it impossible for Oskar Schindler to have rescued anymore Jews; he had already been such a huge help in his attempt to right his wrong and stop the mass murders (Oskar). All in all Schindler's List was a wonderfully crafted film done by Spielberg and even though it is impossible to capture all the devastation and pain of this time, Spielberg does sufficiently show a glimpse of this pain with that final scene being a well made depiction of Schindler's personal conflict with himself and the mass murders in front of him.

traditional thanksgiving

So yesterday was my first traditional thanksgiving in about eight years. By traditional I mean a thanksgiving filled with turkey, stuffing, potatoes and pumpkin pie. Yes it is true my family does not do the turkey thing like most; those crazy italians. Hahaha. We usually have lasagna, meatballs, breadsticks, salad, and birthday cake with ice cream. My guess right now is that anyone reading this is thinking why in the world that. Well this unusal tradition started when my Uncle Lee (RIP) was diagnosed with liver cancer and began to be too ill to leave the house more than once in a blue moon. Since Thanksgiving, my brother, and myselfs birthday were all in the same general area (mine being December 8th and his being December 2nd) we decided to put them all together, henceforth the birthday cake and ice cream. The lasagna, well if your going for nontraditional and you're italian, what other option is there honestly. Who doesn't love lasagna? This tradition always makes me laugh because it reminds me of how crazy and ridiculous my family is and how much I absolutely love them for it! Yesterday however we had Thanksgiving at my Aunt Mary's house instead of mine and since my mom is the lasagna cook we decided that Mary would just have to make turkey and be traditional. The most ironic part was that I didn't eat lasagna over there, I ate lasagna at Tim's house. Maybe one day I will eat turkey with my own family and be traditional, we will have to see. :)

Pop Culture

So this past week I have made the realization that I need to take a pop culture 101 class. Just last month I learned who Tom Hanks was when I watched Forrest Gump for the first time last month. Then to top it off, my senior year was the first time that I found out who Tom Cruise was and who Leonardo Dicaprio was. Yes, I am a disgrace to all teenage girls. My junior year was my first time to see Grease and the summer before my senior year was the first time I watched Titanic. Oh, and I still have not seen Dirty Dancing. Well I tried to watch it but Patrick Swayze was just too smelly to me, he just seemed like he had the worst odor ever. I blame my mother for sheltering me as a child.